Remembering

Remembering my best friend ever who would have turned 66 today. She's been gone about 11 years now.

Choice no choice

Y'know some people think being poly is a choice and I think it is for some people. For some of us though, it's the only way to live an honest life. I am 64 and I grew up in a culture where "normal" is loving all your siblings, your kids, your pets, your friends, but only one person romantically. Anything else was broken, was sick, was sin, was something to be ashamed of. The way a person loves is not something that can be "fixed" because it's not something that is broken. It's really not.

Memoir and truth

OPINION — When I hear a book is a memoir, I have learned the hard way, that it doesn't mean what the author wrote is true. Memory itself is not trustworthy. Ask most two people who have divorced and you will typically get two narratives of their former marriage that cannot be reconciled. Yet, usually, neither are lying.
I remember the episode of Nova called The Memory Hackers. It is our nature, it seems, to adjust our memory based on the environment we are in at the time we are remembering. It also seems every time we remember something the memory itself gets altered.
Sometimes, an author's failure to be true to actual events in a memoir seems intentionally duplicitous. For example Lance Armstrong's book It's Not about the Bike: My Journey Back to Life, which failed to mention that he was cheating when he won the Tour De France many times. Yet, the book inspired me at the time to be a stronger cyclist.
I have read this and other books in the category of memoir, only to later learn that the author's telling of the story did not match up with facts, the author didn't remember correctly, greatly embellished the story, misrepresented themself and/or made the story up.
In the end does it matter? Stories create a vision of the possible. The narrative may not be true, but if it sparks the imagination, maybe entertains, maybe improves the reader's life, is that what matters most?
I had a girlfriend once that was an amazing storyteller. I used to say of Kathy, "she never lets the truth get in the way of a good story." I never took her stories literally. She's gone now but I remember her fondly. Was she lying? I will never know. But, I still remember her stories joyfully.
So, when I read a story that's labeled memoir, I think, "fiction; maybe kinda based on a true story." The author, like Lance Armstrong, may be later labeled a liar and/or a jerk. But, the story. The story has its own legs and, if it sparks something inside you and I, the readers, we can take that and create our own stories, our own truths.

Reflections on the comet

And, the comet continues her journey through the cosmos, disappearing into the abyss.

As I sit back on my planet I ponder the nature of comets:

Comets are comets because — because they are comets.

Comets have to be comets. It's their essential truth. To love a comet you have to accept this. Loving a comet means occasional joy, amazing joy even, followed by the inevitable broken heart that you know is going to come because — comets have to be comets.

It's all good

Being poly, being alone, being mono, being straight, being queer, being trans, being cis, being old, being young, being fat, being, being, being... whatever.

It's all good. Be you!

Emotional Polyamory

In the universe of consensual non-monogamy; that polyamory is based on romantic connection is evidenced by the fact asexual polyamory is a real thing. Emotional polyamory is a real thing too, in my opinion. I believe emotional polyamory is the consensual, lovely and loving (non-sexual) equivalent of an emotional affair. Love is love.

Love Is

Every person I love is different and I am a little different with every one of them. We are different each time we're together. Love changes, evolves, is new, is old and always is love. Love is a shapeshifter and yet — love is love.